Thought I would share this story with you:
"[The teacher] went around the classroom and asked each student what they wanted to be when they grew up. When she got to me, I told her I wanted to be happy. She told me I was missing the whole point of the question. I told her she was missing the whole point of life." (http://www.marcandangel.com/2008/12/01/what-we-all-want-to-be-when-we-grow-up/)
Stop for a moment. Is this really what you want? Or just what you're expected to do? At the end of the day, it's all about happiness.
Find your passion and then begin to live - even thrive. Take chances. Meet new people. Connect with old friends. Make stupid mistakes so long as you learn from them.
Live to learn. Learn to love. Love to live.
